TISMF How is your day going so far?

So. I got up super early, watched the news for a bit, (Very alarmed over what’s happening in Russia) tossed a load in, and finally came downstairs. Made myself some breakfast, was about to go upstairs to transfer to dryer when I hear the husband calling out to me.

CUE THE ALARM!!! DUDE NEVER SENDS OUT THE ALERT.

I go trotting down the hallway, trying to push the urge to panic away until need is confirmed, and the first thing I see is his skinned right knee. My eyes are trying to take in his physical appearance and the room- shelves have been knocked off the bookshelf, the rug is all bunched up weirdly on the far end, and there on top of the mess is the twisted wreckage of his walker.

He got up in the middle of the night (because he Fucking refuses to go to the bathroom before going to bed, like the emotionally anal and urinary retentive 6 year old he is) to use the bathroom and must have tripped over his own sneakers which aren’t usually in his room, but were there last night because he went straight to bed after getting back from wound care and I freaking forgot to grab them and put them somewhere else.

So, immediately I am upset that I heard nothing. Slept through the whole ordeal. Hello GUILT, my long time companion. Would I even exist if I didn’t feel guilty? I’m not so sure. Then I get angry that he turned his Apple Watch off. But NO, he did not turn it off because he forgot to put it on. Good lord give me strength.

Anyways, other than the skinned knee he seems fine. We have extra walkers and walker parts so I just put his extra long leg extensions onto a different walker body, and he is sitting here eating a chicken salad sandwich but my heart is going a million miles an hour and I’m pretty upset.