Some days I am just completely beat. Totally defeated and can barely muster enough energy to get off the chair. Today is one of those days. All day I sit around and wonder if I actually slept last night. I think I slept last night, I felt like I had slept when I rolled out of bed this morning but today I have nothing to give. I needed a nap. It's pretty literal, I feel like thinking is a herculean effort. I still want to be an ostrich and stick my head in the sand until this is over. I wonder if it could be stress related. I definitely listen to too much news and none of it is uplifting these days. Even happy stories make me sad because they're always pre-plague. Or young kids contributing in some way that shouldn't have to be done by young kids. I can't take the people rushing out to restaurants or whatever they think they have absolutely got to do. Fools. Stupid ignorant dangerous fools. You really see who is selfish during this. One of my walking friends told me yesterday that she doesn't wear a mask even if she walks with a friend. Buh-bye idiot!! I wish I lived in New Zealand where they've brought the disease under control. I wonder if they'll let me come in if I agree to a quarantine first. I'd literally go with the shirt on back at this point if some safe place would have me. I just want to wake up and hear that both the press. and v press. were killed in some tragic accident. (I'm leaving the autocorrected title mistakes to avoid random google searches, sorry, I see them there) I'd for sure have a good day after that bit of news. Maybe it's all just stress related. My allergies are through the roof this year so that doesn't help either.
I have started stretching before bed and I think it is making a huge difference in my back pain. So, there's some good news. Maybe I will even look up some legitimate stretches instead of, or in a addition to, the ones I've made up for myself. Though mine do really target the pieces of me I feel need the stretch the most.
As if life wasn't too much of an effort right now, I just found out my website host is closing down. I'm so bummed. Now I have to start all over.
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