Its the first day of the 9th week of this lockdown. Groan.
I'm so over it and I'm really over the morons who won't stay home and stop the spread of this disease. Is it their fault? Sometimes. I don't understand why people aren't raging against the measly $1,200 stimulus check. Let's get real. That is not going to help anyone for very long.
I think sweet pea is depressed so I met a friend and walked together with her dog, sweet pea's mischief sister. I'm sure the dogs were so happy to see each other again. They ran off with their sides touching and then stayed side by side the whole time. We walked two days in a row. I'm not walking right now because it's crazy windy outside and I don't go in the woods in the crazy wind. The last thing I need (other than a pandemic while 1/3 of this country is out of their minds and does not possess the ability to think for themselves) is to be downed by a falling branch. We couldn't go to our usual spot, as it is closed to the public right now. We went to a different town's smaller woods. My friend and I both wore masks. The few other folks we saw walking with their dogs did not. WTF people?? I might start telling them I'm a nurse on a covid ward and they should wear masks around me. hehehe. Fucking idiots.
I still see people jogging up and down my street with no masks. You know, it's been 16 months since I took the keys to utopia off of my key ring and to be honest I've been so deep in the muck of my own pity party rage against my care taker reality that I just didn't have time to wallow in the sadness of giving it up. (ok, not too much) But lately, I feel like that would have been such a better place to be that here and I am really suppressing some serious freaking anger towards the husband for fucking every fucking thing up and being a financial disaster. I'm the only one who really loved that place. I could just lie down and smell the earth I loved it so much. Also, I am deeply unapologetically resentful of being his servant. Everything feels worse in a world where I don't get to leave the house.
I'm making work, and it's decent work, I've given some serious thought to opening an etsy store. I feel like the new stuff is more sellable in the way that it's less conceptual and more easy to appreciate in a surface way. Maybe today I'll research the best selling photographer on etsy and see what's going on on her/his site.
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