Something that doesn’t make any sense to me is that, as a young adult, I would’ve liked to have behaved how Matt is behaving. Matt hasn’t talked to me since June. But that was because my mother didn’t love me and didn’t want me. But I chose to take what I thought was the high road. And I never cut my mother out of my life. Even when she said horrible things to me. Like how having children was her biggest regret and how what she really wanted was to be a career girl. In her warped head she thought she could have a been a real mover and shaker in the advertising world. Haha. And I thought that as long as my kids knew how much I love them and how much I only ever wanted to be their mom but they wouldn’t resent me the way I resented my mother. Boy. I was so wrong. It’s a punch in the gut every minute of every day. I didn’t know I could cry this much.
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