I can see myself falling down that rabbit hole of art think/speak. You know the rabbit hole, it leaves regular people scratching their heads and wondering what you're talking about. Last summer I spent my sunny days in search of compelling images of pools, streaks and splatters of light. I chose to seek out light while listing all of the platitudes people offered me when they didn't know what else to say. I made some good images. This summer I began to wonder about light versus dark. I'm in a pretty dark place, and I wondered if looking for light was a cover for how I really feel. If I am going to make honest work, I wondered, shouldn't I be looking for dark? I may have been searching for the light last summer but this summer, I didn't have the fight in me and I was really dwelling in the dark. Now, You can't have light without dark, and I found myself pondering whether or not I could search out the darkness without the light. I mean, can I? I spent more time than I will openly admit thinking about what the darkness means, how to represent it and how to find it on a sun filled day. I was quite sure I could find darkness in the dark of night, but that wasn't representative of the darkness I am living right now. I'm living in a (or at least my head is living in a) darkness that co-exists with the light- and that got me thinking about how I could create images which show that. I think I'm heading in the right direction. I finally sat down to download images from my memory card and I can see the narrative about darkness coming through. It's much more difficult to photograph than light. It isn't what we are used to searching for. I like the challenge. It gives me something to reach for.
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