Day 20.
I do feel more clear headed and I do feel more goal oriented, but tired most of the time. Yesterday, I suddenly realized that if I were viewing my home I might be concerned about the mental health (Hello? Is the director of hoarders? I have a lead for you.) of the occupants. So I did some cleaning. It's a miracle. I have (much) more to do, but it was pretty amazing what got done in a few hours. Today I did a little bit more. But I was a little concerned about myself because I was seriously dragging myself around the woods this morning. I really had to focus on lifting my feet with each step so as not to fall over rocks or tree roots. Then I got my period and I wondered if maybe this is the reason why (I'm a clear headed zombie) no weight loss last few days? We shall see. If it is that should be resolved before Thursday when I see the doc. I thought I might be over missing coffee and tea by now, but nope. Every day I get happy thinking I am near a coffee place and then I get sad when I remember I swore off it for 28 days.
I went back to the tooth pulling dentist today to try to explain that the tooth next to the tooth he already pulled is throbbing with pain. And (no surprise here) he didn't see anything wrong with it! He spoke of referred pain. I reminded him that I came in originally complaining of temperature sensitivity in that tooth and with the return of the cold air the last two days I find myself unable to breath through my mouth when hiking up mountains, so YEA!!! It still hurts A-Hole. Damn this dentist and his five star rating. WHY DOESN'T ANYONE EVER BELIEVE ME????
I suspect I am stuck in some kind of bizarre twilight zone episode where everyone is secretly trying to drive me insane by denying the reality of whatever I say. I guess I'll just sit around and wait for my little brown dying tooth nugget to turn into a legitimate toothache, and then I will make this dude swear to take my word as gospel the next time around, which he won't because somehow my shit doesn't feel like showing up on x-rays, and everyone is convinced my crumbling teeth are viable despite the fact that I have enough metal implants in my jaw to play jacks with. If anyone ever digs me up it is gonna be quite the sight, especially since I'll also have two fake knees and at least one metal hip by the time I go. (God willing I live long enough to replace all my joints!!) Now I'm feeling kind of jealous over the husband's 2 metal plates, 2 pins and 17 screws elbow. I got some stiff "most titanium" competition in him.
I hate traveling and I don't particularly enjoy your standard issue vacations but I do find myself feeling quite jealous lately when I see that people I know are in warm places. The northeast might not be the place for me. Today some people were talking about Santa Fe. I think I could be happy in the desert. Until I find out that they have weird spiders, snakes, rodents et al... and then I have to give myself that talk that the place with no threats does not even exist, so just find a threat that's doable. (Not earthquakes or landslides)
I'm tired and getting totally distracted by the "related posts" typed shows me on the bottom of the page. There is the 5 year old who lost a tooth, the baby who sprouted one and something about the debut of a tooth fairy. See kids? Nothing is fair. When you get old you have to pay to get your teeth taken out! Better invest that tooth fairy money wisely. I should have been dentist. Life!!
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