So, the cleanse doctor cancelled on me last week and now I don't see her again until next Thursday. Fingers crossed my tests results are in by then. I feel like I am in a battle of wills with my weight. I suspect it isn't going to budge and I am going to stubbornly keep on eating the paltry amount of food this cleanse authorizes. Today I skipped my all vegetable lunch. Not because I planned on it or even wanted to but because since it is Sunday I puttered around the house this morning and didn't get out as early as usual, then I took sweet pea for nearly two and a half hours in the woods, thinking it would be her one big outing for the day. (Evan's friends are home on break from their colleges and he is currently taking sweet pea for another two hour hike. I know she is going to be very tired this evening! I love it when he walks her. I think she loves it too. And I really love it when she so pooped she can hardly move all evening.) So I didn't end up eating breakfast until 11:30 and that just shifted everything making me need to cancel some part of eating for the day, especially since during this part they have two snacks a day. Ooops, Looks like I passed on a snack too. Which is too bad since the snacks are fruit and I do like fruit. I missed it during the fish and vegetable only part. bleh. I am totally craving eggs for the entire time and I there is a little voice in my head wondering if a passion for eggs means eggs are trouble for me. Like sugar, or any drug that makes me skinny, because at this point I might take risks. I am tired of being fat!! I want to bend over to tie my boots with ease. You know I am totally lying about the drugs. I won't even take tylenol for this incredible mouth pain I'm still freaking in.
Speaking of mouth pain ... Today I felt around on my gums and felt a weird bump on the side of extraction. I'll call him tomorrow. Grrrr. Also, with all that yanking the other day my face is now strangely no longer even close to symmetrical. Normally this means a few trips to see the chiro in step ford but I am hoping the new chiro who miraculously healed my pinched neck nerve can do a miracle here too. I'll take a 15 minute drive over a 90 minute drive any day. I'm not sure putting head bones back is normal chiropractor care though. I'll call her and see what she says. In either case I am seeing her on Wednesday anyways. But now that I noticed my messed up face every time I pass my reflection I can't help but tilt my head back to see one round nostril and one oval nostril and one round check and one flat check. I know it sounds like this might have something to do with swelling, but swelling is not my issue. Yay! One thing I don't struggle with!!
I photographed this morning on my hike with sweet pea. I think I might need some fresh territory. I hate to even think this but I feel like I have combed through every inch of the woods so thoroughly that I know it inside and out. It's getting harder and harder to find what I am looking for right now. It's also funny to me how when the woods were still new to me I thought they were HUGE and I would get lost and have to take out my phone and watch the blue dot that was me to see if I was even moving in the right direction. Now that I know these woods like the back of my hands, (which are getting alarmingly crepe-y these days, by the way) I am never lost. I am super confident and feel that creepy relationship thing every ten feet. Needless to say I have many many images of these woods.
My MFA friend called me today and remarked on the strange-ness of someone publishing a book of outtakes. I reminded her that sometimes there are really good photos that just don't go with the theme of a book, and I would love to be famous enough to go into the archives and publish books with good photos I happened to take that didn't make it into the book I was working on at the time. Sounds like a fabulous idea to me! I'm already remembering photos that I loved and had to leave by the wayside.
Well, I looked for one which I thought I might to share with you, but on second thought, it didn't rock me as hard as I thought it would.
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