128 days until graduation, but who is counting? Me and Mitzy! That's who! Shout out to Mitzy, who is still hanging in here with me and did not abandon my blog for Facebook like my other two readers! (As if I am open and honest on Facebook! hahahah) That would be crazy. I mean on Facebook, the people who read my stuff are people who actually know/knew me now and in the past (hello high school reunion) and I'm not going to let them see my insecure whiny side! On Facebook I'm funny and confident, not binge eating my way to an MFA that in all likelihood won't pay for itself because all we have heard since day one in this program is that we are never going to make any money at all publishing photobooks. On Facebook life is glorious and wonderful. Truth be told is that once I realized the program director was stalking us on Facebook I pretty much decided to lay low. Like a worm. Below ground, for the most part. I don't talk about school on Facebook.
I sat down and took a good hard look at the photos I have taken since that last workshop when the program director gave me some technical advice and I am just about giddy with delight. It was just what I needed to shake things up a bit and now I feel like I can really sit down and thrill to all of the great images I have captured and work them into some kind of an edit that will hopefully take a viewer on a spiritual journey of the woods! Simple right? Come viewers, find your holy in the woods with me! Also, buy my book.
I gotta get a gallery behind me. That's what I know.
I am in the fortunate position of having a local school friend who is pretty much done with shooting her book and onto the next stage and thankfully I can follow in her systematic well planned out footsteps and go into the process with some research/groundwork already relayed to me by someone with amazing organizational skills! Just knowing this woman makes me feel better about myself, as if I don't live in this purely emotional/everything I do is because of feelings and not logic/place and pretend that I know something about the stuff she is telling me about and it is all so damned exciting!
As long as come back from our next session having been declared by the powers that be finished with shooting and ready to enter the magical world of book publishing/gallery showing. Because if I come back from the next session with the advice to keep shooting my panic mode will be in full red flag alert and I can predict a slow boring stay in the loony bin after my total nervous breakdown. but I'm not going to think like that. I'm good! I'm good!
PS In the dog park today I had a good laugh with some other dog owners about sweet pea's chow chow/retriever/german shepherd DNA results. Validation is like heroin to me. Can not get enough. If I were a heroin addict, I mean. In real life validation is like chocolate to me, because when push comes to shove I can actually imagine selling a kidney for a guaranteed life time supply.
Haha, I look for your blog posts first when I check my Bloglovin' feed. Thanks for the shout out. Good luck with school. I know you can do it.
Posted by: Mitzy Carter-Penley | April 02, 2015 at 12:59 AM