I suspect that what I really have is a skull fracture, because of the never ending headache. The fog has lifted just a bit and I the level of headache is down to a 1 sometimes, but a stroll with the dog around the house and I start to throb again. STOP!! JUST STOP!!
In the mean time I haven't photographed for over two weeks, and I can easily sit and stare and a crack in the molding for hours. I feel brain damaged. I've been off the computer, and pretty much off my phone, except for 5 minutes here and there to goof on facebook or instagram.
This is not the way to MFA success.
I saw the good doc last week because I want answers. In my twisted sense of what should be fairness,. I get x-rays or cat scans, or what ever you get for an accurate diagnosis and the doctors all run up to me and say it's a miracle that I am functioning at all with the big crack in my skull, and how it has healed 90 percent on it's own and how much they can't believe that I am even upright and then two days later the pain disappears, and I live on totally normal and knowing that I did indeed seriously crack my head open and carry on almost like nothing happened. Because, despite the internal whining and the occasional whine here, I have pretty much carried on taking care of everyone. Except even a trip to buy dog food today ended with my pounding head.
I miss walking the dog. I'm pretty sure she misses being walked too. But she is so good. She doesn't complain like bear bait would have.
And it is currently snowing here, the first day of the month after the coldest February on record. This winter has it out for me. I'll be wearing spikes and chains on my boots until May.
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