The weather is making me INSANE. Today's forecast was for rain, but it wasn't raining when I got up and strolled my poop bombed lawn with sweet pea, so I figured that I would quickly shower and head out and by then there would be a decent amount of light so I quickly cleanse and then I glanced out the window and WHAM!
rain
Mother nature is testing me.
My options are
1. curl up into a ball and weep
2. meditate and try to unwad my panties
3. come up with some sort of clever way to keep my already vulnerable splitting camera dry while walking through the rain, setting up the tripod and then shooting a tryptic.
4. stomp my feet, raise my fists and curse at the skies which keep giving me blasted weather extremes except for the fog I so desperately desire.
5. pig out from frustration
6. sit around and scrath myself all day while watching the kind of mind numbing programming which lowers my IQ.
7. manage to play fetch with sweet pea and walk her every two hours inbetween numbers 1-6.
My frustration level is through the roof right now. I feel like if I could just have some solid hazy foggy days with marathon shooting sessions I could even compile enough work to call it a day! I already have a sweet amount of solid images, I just need a little chunk more.
And I need to break through my resistance to talking about my work. I think the reason I have so much trouble is a vulnerability issue. Also, I was trained as a kid to suck it up and tow the line and not whine about my own needs, so there is that too.
Update: Decided YES!! I was going to brave the elements with my camera as soon as I took sweet pea into the poop field (back yard) for another opporunity at elimination. I skidded across the driveway like Tom Cruise in Risky Business, shuffled back into the house and saw that there is a severe weather warning because it isn't raining it is icing and I am encoraged by my town official to stay indoors. I watched Sunday Morning instead. At least I salvaged my IQ. The bright side is a warming trend is on the horizon for the rest of the day, so even though the chance of rain is 100 percent, I'm thinking maybe I will get that fog I want so much when the sheet of ice that is otherwise known as the ground melts.
Update II: I could tell by the lack of glisten the driveway had melted, so I ran out with sweet pea for another chance at elimination before I ditched her to photograph in the drizzle. It's pouring. Can't chance it with the camera. Thinking about going to a couple of places I scoped out on the internet this morning to see if they are deserving of a repeat trip some day in the future when mother nature is my friend again. The good news is that I haven't pigged out yet, but a day in the house might push me over the edge. Gotta make plans.
Update III: went to the woods and photographed for two hours from underneath an umbrella, keeping my camera dry with a trash bag. Worked like a charm until the umbrella became saturated and started to leak. It rained all the way back to the house. I grabed sweet pea, took her outside and within a minute the rain tapered off and thick heavy fog obscured everything. Tempted to go back out, but too wet cold and lazy.
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