Well. I'm still here.
I'm kind of struggling with photo making. I'm not sure what happened, but I'm pretty sure the less than optimal environment of my last session has something to do with my loss of enthusiasm. What ever. I have to shake it off because in the end I will be publishing a photobook no matter what and defending a thesis wether they support me during the process or not, so I have to put my big girl panties on and make like everything is good, paste on my public smile and get off my butt and go make some quality work. The place where I am really struggling is in defining what I want to say with the images I am taking. Though, to my own credit, all along I have been saying to my advisor that I see more than one body of work in my photos. He won't exactly tell me what he thinks about anything, which sucks because I am not a mind reader. I am correct in this assumption, I was schooled during the last session, and need to sort. But first I have to develop my spiel. I am so not a spiel kind of person. I am actually thinking of hiring someone to help me. I know there are professional spiel writers out there. I gotta start asking around. Or something. (insert curse word here)
In other news, now that I am not teething, I actually feel much better. That sore tooth that got filed down is still sore, but right now it's been nearly two weeks since I saw the chiro and my bite is so off that I can barely chew. Tonight I chopped my meat on a cutting board. I really can't chew. Tomorrow I might just eat left over pumpkin soup from thanksgiving all day long. This would be an awesome time for a liquid diet.
I feel like I need a horse. I must have seen something about a horseon television. I'm really jonesing to pet a horse nose. But what I really need is a dog. I've been looking at puppies on line but I really want to meet a dog before making that huge committment and all these dogs are down south somewhere even though they are being advertised by agencies which are close by. What is up with that? Are there that many people who are willing to bring home a pet without meeting it first?? We did that with bear bait, and I'm not calling her a mistake or anything, but I'm pretty sure a red flag would have gone up if I had met her first. When bear bait was a puppy we didn't exactly connect. It was pretty scary for the first year or so. This time around I want a dog who acknowledges me presence even if I am not waving a bite of steak in her face. Did I ever tell you about how I used to give the kids steak once a week while bear bait was in puppy school so I could cut up left overs and take them along with chopped up cheddar cheese in the treat pouch to puppy school in hopes that she would be inticed into paying attention to me? It didn't work. Pretty much there was no training until she learned the word "treat" and became bribable. My next dog will even be able to make eye contact.