believing

I called the goddess to tell her that Bob had passed and she burst into tears and told me how about 10 days ago while standing in her kitchen she had a vision of a young and strong Bob telling her that was good and he was happy.

I believe.

I also believe in alternative healing.  Yesterday, I went back to the tooth removing dentist AGAIN (I think I've been there once a week for the past two months) to tell him that I was in MORE PAIN than I had been since this odyssey of suffering began.  He referred me to a facial pain specialist and a neurologist witht he suspicion that I am suffering from Trigeminal Neuralgia.  Google it if you like, but in a nut shell, it's a painful nerve condition and the treatment for it is "It can be managed with pain killers."  WTF??  I figure there is a chance I have 40 more decent years left (please give me grandma's genes!) and there is no way I am goign to begin my inevitable pain killer addiction at 49!  

I went to bed a sad pitiful pain riddled girl.  But today I had an appointment with my old magical chiro.  Guess who is feeling relief already!  Yes yes yes!!  Not 100% but I'd say that 15 minutes with him was equal to a prescription strength advil, at least.  And, if things go as they usually do, tomorrow should bring even more improvement.  I'm going back Saturday.  I was so freaking grateful for my chiro's magic that I sent him an email thanking him.  I know it is hard for people to tell how much I am suffering, and I told him how much relief I feel.  I am looking forward to good night's sleep for the first time in weeks today.