blue?

For the past three nights I have had crazy crazy dreams.  I wasn't sure what the first night's crazy dream was caused by but I am known to be a vivid dreamer, so one vivid dream didn't surprise me, then I chalked the second night's crazy dream up to the lovely and ever so helpful laughing gas I got that evening when I caved on my no-root-canal-just-remove-the-tooth-and-give-an-implant rule and went ahead with the root canal.  (instant pain relief?  YES!)  But last night's crazy dream took me by surprise.  I was physically tired yesterday after hiking for three hours in the morning with my camera and old (read:heavy) tripod,  so I expected a good night's sleep, but that was not to be.  And get this

I DIED IN MY DREAM

Not only did I die in my dream, but in my dream I KILLED MYSELF.  There was a system of devices, that everyone was killing themselves or other people with and I'm not even sure why I killed myself, but I did, I just kind of knew I had to.  It was two step process, one shot to the stomach for blood loss and one to the head.  In the end I decided to go straight for the head, knowing that dying was the ultimate goal and fearing that if the stomach shot was too painful I wouldn't follow through with the head shot, so I held up the device to my forehead, knowing there were going to something like two nails shooting out of it, like a double nail gun side by side.  It required two hands to press down on some kind of lever along the bottom of the device and I began to squeeze as hard as I could but got weak as soon as the nails hit me, and even though I was trying to squeeze more to make sure I finished the job but I couldn't squeeze because I was dying, my hands were useless,  and then my vision just filled with blue color, and I was so surprised that the last color I saw was going to be baby blue.  And I knew when the blue filled up everything I could see, (it was filling with waves of color from the bottom up) that I was a goner and then I had the feeling that I couldn't breathe any more.

And I lived to tell you about it, internet!! 

When I woke up I kept thinking BLUE???

Not sure what the point of that dream was.  Blue?  Seriously?