Tonight I went the Litchfield Jazz festival with a utopian friend. I put on one of either mom's or grandma's necklaces for the event. The necklace was very heavy on my throat, and in the car on my down I was thinking about how poorly I've been eating and how I am bingeing in such an obvious attempt to soothe my agitated nerves. When did I become such an anxious person? Seriously, if I was my own friend I'd be telling myself to take a lude all of the time. Anyway I was thinking how I should convince myself that the weight of such a necklace, (and I ended up with a variety of mom's "chunkier" stuff since lil sis is petite and much of mom's chunky faux jewelry swallowed lil sis's lil-ness up) is calming and soothing and keeps me grounded. I was telling myself to focus on the weight on my neck. Feel the weight on my neck. bla bla bla. (Like that's gonna work when someone whips out temptation!)
Lo and behold my friend and I duck into the safety of a jewelry booth to escape some rain and what is this chick selling? She is selling something called "spirit locks" and this is what she had to say about them (lifted directly off of her web site):
"The spirit lock is a talisman or amulet for healing from northern Thailand. The tribe that makes them is called the Hmong. They believe that your soul is made up of many spirits and if one of your spirits wanders away that is how you get sick. The spirit lock locks all your spirits into your soul to keep you healthy."
You can see them here. Guess who got herself a brand shiny new spirit lock tonight?
Wow, that would REALLY explain a lot here, too, because I've been eating completely out of control for a few weeks now.
Placebo or not, I need one of those, just to remind me to stay centered. Think it will help if I just draw one on my chest every morning? Or wait, perhaps on my hand, so I can see it when I lift more temptations to my mouth.
Jokes aside, I find it a comforting thought ... strange.
Posted by: Pippa | August 11, 2011 at 03:17 PM