amateur

Being more aware of the cycle of a daily mid afternoon crazed frenzied binge routine for what ever reason, (which doesn't matter to me, it has to stop!)  helped me regain a tid bit of composure today.  I bravely tried my egg white protein powder (because I'm not sure if my gall bladder likes it or not) for  my first two meals of the day and I think there may have been more satisfaction in it for me than usual.  I did feel the insanity coming over me at the usual time but I managed to snack within reason.  Not that it was weight loss snacking, but it wasn't insanity snacking.  Baby steps.

I was angry this morning and when the stretcher asked me to do some squats on a squat machine with weights he set the weight at 100 pounds.  I told the stretcher I was angry and would be able to go heavier due to the adrenaline flowing coursing through my angry veins.  He told me I wouldn't because he was going to have me do 40 reps, 20 in two different positions.  So I did the 40 reps at 100 pounds and to prove my point I chatted all the way through.  The next round on that machine he slid the pin down to 140 pounds.  My legs were trembling by the end.  My upper body muscles didn't get the same adrenaline blast as my lower body.  Dang.

The stretcher attempted to steam roll the pain out of my knees today.  He said something about tendons and patellas and doesn't think that it is my knees that are hurting but an inflammation of the tendons due to rubbing from my off kilter patellas.  I said I'd mention it to the chiro and the stretcher suggested acupuncture.  Yay!  Needles! 

The session ended up with me lying on a stretcher table first whimpering in pain and then when I thought I couldn't take the agony of rolling for one more second I burst into a whole body shaking giggle fit.  The stretcher was amused.  I guess he has never brought a woman to pain induced hysterical laughing before.  Amateur.