Holy cow! Evan is 12.

Evan turned 12 on Thursday.  

For some reason I can deal much easier with Matt's birthday and Josh's birthday.  Sometimes I wonder if it is because Evan was so very difficult to conceive.  Well, actually I had no problem conceiving babies when I wanted have a second child, it was losing them that was my issue.  I call Evan my miracle baby.

Maybe it's because Matt is forging new ground and that is exciting, and Josh growing up means I can reclaim time for my own, but Evan getting older doesn't really have any thrill factor or life recouping benefit for me.   I want Evan to shrink back down just a little, or maybe a lot, just for 24 hours here and there so I can pop him into his old sling and I carry him around and smell his downy soft baby hair and gaze into his huge brown eyes and keep him close and know that even if I think about something else for a minute or two he is right next to my heart safe and sound.  And that would feel very good.

Or maybe it's because Evan came into this world totally like a grown up serious guy in adorable packaging and no matter which cutesy little outfit I put on him he was still this very grown up little kid who wanted have an in depth conversation with you and talk about something relevant and got pissed off when you or anyone else told him he was just simply darling and visually appealing, because he just wanted to be appreciated for his superior intellect and deep thinking abilities and not for his dashing good looks.

Comments

[Laura]

"but Evan getting older doesn't really have any thrill factor or life recouping benefit for me." -

Wow - talk about giving the kid middle child syndrome.

"he just wanted to be appreciated for his superior intellect and deep thinking abilities and not for his dashing good looks."

- Evan will be the evil genious who ends up ruling... well whatever he wants to rule!

Happy Birthday Evn!

[clickmom]

The funny thing is that as well as Evan fits the middle kid stereotype today, he also fit it to a tee his first four years of life when he was the youngest of two. Unless a kid can be born psychically knowing he is going to end up a middle kid one day I still can't figure that one out. Hopefully Evan, the strikingly handsome evil genius that he is, will aim just a hair line lower than world domination. It looks like he is heading towards a nice financial empire since he told his friends and family he only wants cash for his birthday because he is thinking this a good time to play the market. You know, buy low sell high. Evan wants in on the action right now.