Did I mention that I am teaching religious school? It's an odd combo, me and religious school, because I am somewhat conflicted when it comes to organized religion. I see the purpose of it for people that need all the structure but honestly, I think (I could be wrong) that I am a pretty moral and spiritual person with out the organized part. And then there are those other people.
The husband is pretty much in charge of religious everything. So when the rabbi said "Click I want to talk to you." after school the other day, I got a little panicky inside. My mind started racing. OMG! What did I say to those kids?? I faced the rabbi waited for the ax to fall and then she looked me straight in the eye and asked "How are you? The holidays can be so hard after a loss." Off the hook!
So, we took a long drive to an art store today. I needed some art supplies for a class that I let Peanut talk me into. On our way down I was sitting quietly thinking to myself about religion and how it is so very important for some people and how it is so misused by some other people. Should I learn more? Maybe our congregation has something special, after all, it's the hippie congregation. If you look through the directory you are just as likely to find a Meghan O'Shaunessy or an Anthony Devito. We have lots of jews by choice. And also gays. So it's a very cool kind of accepting place to be. The powers that be even changed some wording of certain prayers to include every person and not just jews. I like that part. I just wonder if I need it or not. And also if anyone anywhere is using it for an evil cause. And I was thinking about organized religion and whether or not I was making something out of nothing when we were passed by an SUV with a bumper sticker that read "CHOOSE JESUS OR CHOOSE HELL" and I just felt doomish. See, I don't think that that is a good purpose.
Then a few hours later, on the highway going in the opposite direction, the very same scary SUV passed us for a second time. How freaky is that?
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