Josh was using my computer and when I turned it on later in the day I saw this.
As if I am not worried enough.
About me.
Went to that breast specialist today. The specialist was nice enough.
It seems that I can check off just about everything on the long list of things that might contribute to mysterious indeterminate (and incurable) breast pain.
stress. check.
weight gain. check
age of possible perimenopause. check
neck injury. check
Luckily cancer does not usually cause pan.
Oh, wait there are two things a girl could take to see if they help with the pain. One is tamoxifen (no thank you) and the other is male hormones (uh ..... double no thank you). Sometimes these two things work. Sometimes. Yeah, that doctor was pretty hilarious, don't you think?
She ordered an ultrasound. The ultrasound technician was a bitch. I had an internal panic attack when she squirted the ultrasound gel on my boob and I couldn't feel the coldness of it that I had braced myself for. I figured I had had pain in the boob for so long and had tried so hard not to touch, poke, stroke, irritate the boob for so long that I had lost sensation in it. Afterwards I spotted the ultrasound gel warming device on the table. HA! My bad!
The ultrasound itself seemed thorough enough, the technician zoomed right in on my painful spot and my swollen spot and took lots of pictures. And then more pictures. It wasn't the number of pictures that has me totally unabashedly freaked out it is that she took a quick swipe of the area before zeroing precisely in on the area of interest. I feel like she saw something, which naturally she would not say if she did because the liar said she only took the pictures and that she didn't know if there was anything there to be concerned about. Liar. I wanted to slap her. I hate liars.
Then she left me in the room alone while she went to "see if the pictures were good" and I peered over at the machine to see if she had left the last image up. There was no image, but my personal info was still on there and so was a column with "Mass 1 Mass 2 Mass 3" in it. If you are or know an ultrasound technician please tell me that this is the standard outline on the screen and nothing to be alarmed about.
B thinks that being thorough is what they do at the breast center and I should not be worried. I am worried.
They were supposed to call me from the nice doctors office when they got the report but so far no word. Will update if I hear today.
I have no idea what it means but you might want to say "Um, I saw this thing about mass on there and I just thought you should know that I'm not Catholic, I'm Jewish."
Posted by: danelle | September 17, 2008 at 09:39 PM