I went to spin class today. Pretty much as soon I started to spin my legs my thighs began whining. And whimpering. I said "Quiet you two! Just move those pedals! And no complaining when I have to stand!" But the thighs are stubborn, oh yes they are, and whine and complain they did for the whole entire 1 hour spin class. I tried to talk it out with them. I said "Guys, what is the deal? You have no energy.... like ever. Why is it that you are not recovering between torture exercises?" But they didn't answer me, only kept on with the pitiful kind of heart wrenching mind blowing whining. In order to block out their cries of agony, I set the mind to work, I said "Mind, what is going on here? They are so unhappy, always lazy, never wanting to get the job done. They weren't like this back in September. They were roaring to go back then and I didn't even use them all summer!" And then the mind briefly considered that I had given the legs the summer off, kind of, and that maybe they needed inordinate amounts of rest, and then the mind remembered something critical, back in September we were still sugar free from the summer of good eating. And the mind reminded me that the legs never want to play after a thorough sugar binge and I realized that there are so many food issues that I need to reconcile. Like my enjoyment of physical activity and how difficult it is to be active when I am not eating well.
Also, there were full body bathing suit photos taken of me during this past vacation (one of my kids apparently has a death wish) and they really blew my mind. I can not believe (well, I can but I don't want to) that my physical self is the same person as my mental self. To me I look like I am a complete psychological mess. Maybe this is my own personal issue, perhaps I am a weightist, but if my big fat self struck up a conversation with my physical self, say on line at the check out counter or something, my mental self would burst out crying imagining the psychic pain my physical self must be in in order to eat herself into this condition.
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