deal

Still feeling down about regaining all the weight and the scales are still on the way up. I needed some comfort the one no fail way I know how to get it. Through the mouth. I stopped by the bucks today for a warm toasty caffeinated beverage and I ordered my beverage to a never been seen by me before pretty little ray of sunshine behind the counter. When the ray turned around only then did my eyes drop below her sweet and smiling face and OMG the pretty little ray of sunshine was as emaciated as can be. My first thought was "She must be in pain" followed by "How does she stand?" and then a million other thoughts went through my head like "What is missing in her life?" or "How hard that must be for her poor little heart." and then I realized that she and I across the counter from each other must have been such an odd sight. Pretty little thing could likely double her weight, while pretty big thing, me, could easily halve her weight. Then I realized through my stun as I wrapped my meaty paws around my warm and toasty caffeinated beverage that any other anyone in that particular Stepford laden bucks might just be looking at me and asking herself all the exact same questions that I was thinking in my own head about. Which made me feel so connected to the little ray of sunshine and I wanted to reach over the counter, lift all 60 pounds of her up and cradle that little ray of sunshine in my arms and fold her up into my lap and just hold her there until it all stopped hurting us both so much.

Comments

[Laura]

Wow. you really have a way of connecting with people. Even if they are unaware of it (which sounds odd since a connection involves more than one person). But we can all see ourselves in other people we meet or come across. It's just that most people are too busy to notice. It's when we stop to think about others that we really notice things in ourselves.

Okay I sound like a shrink. I'll stop now. This comment was a supposed to convey awe and there should be a compliment in here somewhere. I hope it reads that way.