Feeling pathetic today.
According to the Danskin website there are 55 days left until race day.
That's one day less than 8 weeks.
Yup, 7 weeks, 6 days left, and I just don't feel what I felt last year.
Thrill of the challenge? Nope. Passion for training? Nope. Desire for change? Fear? Nope.
Maybe it is my hormones talking here, because I am in the throws of a nasty PMS (Don't look at me! Don't touch me! Why are you smiling???), or maybe it is my crappy eating for THE LAST MONTH, yes, the last month. I got on that boat in Alaska, took one look at all the baskets of candy and threw in the towel. I haven't been able to get back in the saddle for more than a couple of days straight. Shame on me, I only tell you how I am doing when I am doing great. When I am a mess, I just leave that part out. Yup, folks, clickmom is a dietary mess. It's binge, binge, binge here. I am afraid to know how much I have gained over the past month, and am sure the news is bad, very bad. I do not have a scale up here at the island, so I can't say for sure, but all my new crisp shorts are folded nicely in the drawer while the two pair of cheap stretchy elastic all cotton Old Navy comfy shorts- they see action every day. Evan said my legs are getting fat, which is weird, cause I would have pegged chins and stomach first, but well, I asked him so I guess I can't argue with the answer.
Another triathlon related happening that is zapping my enthusiasm is that Peanut has rallied a huge chunk of our town into doing this tri, and there are so many folks doing it that it doesn't feel special and private and all about our babes anymore. It was such a nice cozy group thing last year and now it is all organized- stepford wife -type A personality- over zealots- thing. I dunno. I guess I just liked the small private component of it. sigh. bah hum bug.
One thing I really really wanted to do this time around was to run instead of walk the triathlon. I am reading this book, which I so wish I had last year before my first triathlon, and the author (How much do I love anyone who would seemingly title a book after me?) recommended a web site. I am going to do this program which should get me at least able to run close to the entire 5k distance (if my legs/knees/ankles hold out) in 7 weeks and 6 days. I am starting tomorrow. I tried to do some running a couple of times, but I don't know what I am doing and without the guidelines I just give up. I need a program, not just a goal. I am wondering if running on a treadmil at the gym counts as much as running outside. I prefer the anonymity of the gym workout. But, I think I'll just do it outside because that is where the tri is. I wish I could be invisible when running. Today my massive bosom was stared at by a young driver. The PMS kicked in and I got runners rage over it. Couldn't do anything though, in the game of car vs me, car wins so I just plodded onwards.
My new training schedule for the rest of the summer is going to look like this:
Mon, Wed & Fri: Running followed by pilates. (Technically the pilates is obviously not necessary for a triathlon, but i really want to be able to do sit ups with grace and style)
Tues & Thursdays: Swimming and biking.
Sat: choice. Sunday- relax.
Today I ran/walked and did pilates, but my head wasn't into it and I was lazy. I only stayed on the treadmil for 1 1/2 miles, and was lazy in Pilates class. Like I said: attitude in need of adjustment.
Eventually I'll have to start fooling around with the bricking (doing two sports back to back to simulate the actual triathlon) but for right now, I just need to up the training output. The tough bricking is going from the bike to the run. It is a whole different set of leg muscles in use and it feels so wierd to switch. Maybe I'll even do another fake tri here in mid August. The one I did last year was so exciting. I need to boost my enthusiasm some how. I wonder if I can get a babe to do it with me. Hmmm...
I can't decide if I should straight swim or use the paddles, which make it harder, that is good for building muscle, but the paddles move me faster too, so I can do the entire length in less time. I think as a compromise I'll use the paddles, but swim farther so that I am swimming for the amount of time I'll be swimming for during the triathlon. Then I will hopefully have plenty of energy left after the swim at the triathlon.
I promised the kids a campfire and some s'mores tonight, so I guess I'll drag my fat butt down to the fire pit and get things
started. inhale. exhale.
You make me tired.
Posted by: danelle | July 26, 2006 at 12:35 AM