I unintentionally ate wheat yesterday. I ordered a casserole type dish that I had safely eaten at a different restaurant, and did not question this one. As I was shovelling in the last few bites, I suddenly realized that part of it had been breaded. It was too late, there was no going back. I wished I knew how to make myself vomit. Around four hours later I was going for a bike ride with Evan, and as we walked our bikes up the causeway I realized that I had some serious pain going on right above the belly button. This morning I woke up with sharp pains in the whole belly area. I went to the bathroom and expelled the cause of the pain, but oh my goodness is my gut sore. I feel like I have just recovered from a huge case of the stomach flu.
I was tested for celiac before I went wheat free and they didn't find anything, but this pain is totally not normal. It is familiar though, and I find it interesting how when not in pain it is so easy to forget how much it used to hurt. I used to feel like this all the time, and never even question it, I just went on with my life. During my walk this morning I needed to move less than usual. It is tough to have an enthusiastic walk without moving your sore abdominal cavity. I feel like I have eaten ground glass.
Concerns now - reawakening the addiction. I am hoping to get through the day with out starting to crave again. I have no idea how much I actually consumed, and no one knows how much it takes to trigger the cravings again anyways. I am totally dedicated to the program, and am vowing to the entire on-line community that I WILL NOT FALL OFF THE WAGON. I will resume my normal eating today, and will not eat any wheat or sugar. Same goes for tomorrow and every day after. I have come too far, feel too good, and am too interested in regaining my health to let this one set back destroy all the progress I have made.
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