Today is one of those days that I just HATE everybody. I can not take these people who won't take this pandemic seriously and I know how awful this sounds, but I wish someone in a high place had openly publicly suffered and then died so that people would open their eyes. If I ran the states every media personality and person with influence who said this was just a flu or lied about the death rate would be charged with a crime. I can not believe that half the population is saying they won't get the vaccine. It would be easier if that half all just got sick tomorrow and weren't allowed to seek help so whoever was left afterwards the rest of us could know was probably immune or of sound mind. I know its not fair to say that if everyone had behaved like me there would be no spread and almost 300k people wouldn't be dead. I recognize that not everyone had the luxury of being shut in. But if everyone who could have stayed home just stayed home then this country wouldn't beware we are today. I hate everyone today. I am mourning for all of those dead people. Especially the ones who didn't deserve to die.
Thank god Josh plays by my rules. I can not even imagine how difficult this would be if he was fighting me about it and leaving the house to go be with friends, etc...
I left the state for the first time yesterday. I drove to step ford to see the chiro. I didn't want to do it but my knee forced into it. I banged it on the wall turning a corner 2 weeks ago and my knee cap has been dislocated ever since. It did bruise, and I did ice it but then the swelling was up and down up and down and when it swelled up it hurt so much that I could not even barely bend my leg. I did realize on my own that the swelling was following the pattern of me eating some corn product, (popcorn/chips) so guess who isn't eating corn anymore. I can't believe I am THAT person who has a ridiculous and complicated restrictive diet. I never wanted to be that person. I recall telling someone how my nightmare would be ending up an old lady who only eats boiled chicken breasts. I'm getting there.
In the mean time, the chiro was always a stickler for hygiene (he used to wash his hands between patients before the pandemic) so I assumed he was being as careful as someone who has to see patients could be, but then he told me that he and his wife have been going to the gym. God fucking dammit. Now I can't go back to him until this is over. I'm praying that whatever he did that helped my knee sticks, because I'm not driving all that way to risk infection. Now I'm on a countdown and I better not get sick from going to see him. If I do get sick from his office I will never forgive him.
I have been walking sweet pea at odd times (well, odd for me, not for all the people who keep showing up at the park who have never before gone on a walk in their lives) And I have bumped into this one woman who runs right fucking past me as close as she can without knocking me over a bunch of times and the next time I am going to yell at her. I will scream "Hey! SIX FEET BITCH!!" and if she doesn't recognize that I am itching for a fight and keep running I will call her Olive Oyl, because she is tall, scrawny thin and shapeless and you know she was teased in high school. I will intentionally try to open an old wound. Also, she has nasty hair, very coarse, a weird unnatural shade of brown, and clearly over processed so I will be sure to tell her to take her 'funky colored brillo hair" and run somewhere else. Or something. I hate that woman extra today. Mostly because I am fairly certain she never ran in the woods before the pandemic and now she is huffing uncomfortably close to everyone DURING A PANDEMIC. I can't with these people any more!!
On a side note, it is slightly amusing and totally pathetic to see all the people who have never trained their dogs try to leash walk their dogs through a park full of well trained off leash dogs. Of course the dog are gigantic labradors and other big breeds and those people are getting yanked all over by their dogs who want to play and run with the well trained dogs.
Some idiot with two pit bulls came towards me on a trail today. One pittie was on leash and naturally leash pittie lunged at sweet pea like he was going to tear her to pieces. Luckily the dude was strong enough to pull back on the leash and sweet pea ran straight back to me. Then there was a huge tree right next to the trail. Sweet pea and I walked around the far side of the tree while he passed on the trail side of the tree so his maniac dog that shouldn't be in an off leash dog park to begin with, couldn't get another chance to threaten my angel baby.
I wish I could sleep until life was back to normal. Also, I am hoping for a guarantee that all the people who showed up at the park because they can't do everything else they want to do will leave the park once they go back to doing the other things. I hope they aren't converted. I want them all to leave. I might have to move somewhere less populated.