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self portrait tuesday 4/18

Still being not in a playful mood, I was again stumped for ideas for this months challenge. BUT Tuesday is my pilates day and there is always that pose (short spine??) that makes me feel silly! The instructor couldn't believe when I said I had to take a photo of this and that I wanted to do it myself. (anal? purist?) Of course, she kinda freaked out that I was holding the pose too long, and didn't want me to turn my head while all half upside down, and she just didn't get it. She didn't get the importance of me capturing the moment. I am posting two shots, the first is what I see when my legs and butt go up in the air, and the second I tried to take of myself. I call it "I am about to suffocate myself with my own boobage" pose. If you look into the reflection in the rear mirror you can see more of what is actually going on.

self portrait tuesday 2/21

This assignment was particulary difficult for me because it was to photograph a part of me that I don't like. Anyone who has read me for more than a week knows that one thing about myself that I don't like is my huge stomach. When I spend most of my life pulling my shirt down to hide it, it seemed impossible to actually photograph how I feel about it. I thought about clothed photos, and how in the world I would take not clothed photos, the last thing I need here on my web site are porno seekers.

I didn't know what to do, and this was the last Tuesday of the month. I thought about potographing some other parts of me, like all my scars, but truthfully, they don't bother me at all. For some reason I felt like there was only one direction I needed to go in here and I couldn't figure out how to do it. Then I got to my folks house, with this weighing on my mind, when it hit me. In this house is a long thin bathroom. At one end is a shower with sliding mirrored doors. Right next to the shower is the tiolet, and when a person is sitting on the potty they can look to the left and see their side view. I have been cringing at the side view of me with my pants pulled down for 23 years, and I knew that this was what I needed to shoot for this months portrait. Here is the ugly part of me, according to me.....

Self Portrait Tuesday 1/03/06

I am experimenting with a new thing here. Today is Self Portrait Tuesday, named after the web site bearing the same name and also there is a flicker account, but I am not literate enough to know anything about flicker. The theme for this month is personal history.

This is one of the ideas I had, it is me with a baby photo of myself. I am seeing this time of my life as a sort of rebirth for me, since my attitudes regarding my own health and needs have done a complete 180 and I am making my own health a priority. I feel as if I am taking care of the baby I used to be, teaching her how valuable and worthwhile she is, and how she deserves the same good care and attention as all the people she has been able to take responsibility for. She/I am learning how to take care of me. I am re-writing my history. I want myself to be a part of it. I matter.