My mind is still reeling over the maternal betrayal- (see yesterday's post)
But, you know, as always, what doesn't kill me... stronger...hahahaha.
I'm a super hero by now.
So, in the "I got on with my life" department, I finally had the chance to sit down and edit the photos I've been shooting this summer. I've been leaning towards more and more conceptualism in my work, or more accurately, defining a concept to... I dunno. Grad school changes a girl! I can't just go out there and be inspired by nature and it's awesomeness and settle for that. Now I have to be exploring the depths of my soul in what ever I do..
That being said, since last summer I've been focusing on making work in which I am searching for light- shafts of light, pools of light, dapples of light dancing off of random leaves. All of my work is made in the woods that I go to with sweet pea every day. I wouldn't quite say that I am a landscape photographer, but more that I make work from within the landscape. The work is about something other than the landscape- or something along the lines the landscape serves as a backdrop in my search for ... Oh lord, what am I searching for? Am I searching? Or.... am I finding? That's more like it. Yeah, I think I am finding that in the woods there is a mirror to every outside the woods experience. If you can get your head around that.
This summer I started to wonder if I could photograph darkness. To photograph light I needed darkness, and to photograph darkness I would need light, but the trick was to make a photograph that wasn't about light- it would be about the dark. I've been struggling and struggling and finally last week I think I had a bit of a breakthrough. SO I am super pumped right now. I feel like I managed to make images that are pleasing to look at, interesting, mysterious, have components of light and dark and are not about the light but about the shadows or more poetically, they are about what you can not see as much as they are about what you can see.
I hesitate to put any online because of thieves who steal your images, but I will do what I do for instagram, which is I will post a low quality phone photograph of my computer screen so you can get the idea. Look for those photos in the next post. I can hear my pillow calling out to me from the bedroom, Gotta go.