So much today.
It's sweet pea's birthday, but since I'm the only one who really cares I didn't tell anyone else.
I called 911 this morning when I got to the dog park and a guy told me he'd been having chest pains, shortness of breath, and a racing heart since yesterday! He didn't want to go to the hospital and might call the doctor tomorrow if he didn't feel better tonight. I knew that if I didn't do anything I would live with deep guilt if anything happened to him. Also, I couldn't let him drive a car thinking he was having a heart attack. The ambulance came and they kept him in there for about half an hour before he came out and told me everything was fine. I kind of think he was lying to me, but I did the right thing and the rest is up to the guy. I thought he was going to be angry with me, but he said he was glad that someone cared. I think he is unhappy at home. I can't be his nurse. I have my hands full already. I hope he is ok.
And it's the 3 year anniversary of Bob dying. Just last week I made a chicken dish that I learned how to make when I let someone host a cooking demonstration in my house. Bob was living with us at the time and he totally came through for me helping me clean the place to perfection before hand. When I got the whiff of the chicken coming out of the oven I thought "I have to call Bob and tell him I made this recipe and it smells great!" and then I cried myself to sleep. There is still a little hole in my heart where my love for Bob used to be. I still think about calling him and then I realize over and over again. Dammit. He's gone forever. Life's not fair. I hate that.
On a less depressing note, I figured out how to make a little book to give out to the reviewers I will meet at the portfolio review at the end of the month. At first I made a very long book, but then I realized it was way too long and I saw a short and sweet book on someone's website and I realized that it would be way better to make a powerful statement with a smaller body of work. The new book has 7 images (about 1/3 of the other version) and you can unfold it to a little poster which is printed on the back of the little 7 images- so 8 images all together. All stronger and better thought out. I'm psyched about it.
So now all I have to do to be ready to go to the review is print out this little book with extra paper from my thesis work,(yay! Free paper!) cut and fold the books together , print out a second portfolio I was thinking about bringing to the review and buy/make some nice kind of wrapper for the book. Piece of cake as long as no one around here wants freshly prepared food. Or attention. wink wink.