When digital watches were new my grandma got one for me. I think I was in junior high school. Then, when I went to high school I used to time my morning walk to the subway. To get to my station I had to cross 5 avenues, which meant that on a poorly timed morning my 1/2 mile walk could potentially take an entire 5 minutes of red light waiting time longer than on a morning when I hit all green lights. I drove myself so insane stressing about the lost minutes at red lights that I got an old fashioned watch that didn't even have marks for the minutes and put that digital watch in the drawer.
A couple of summers ago peanut showed me how the iPhone can keep track of the number of steps I take each day.
I just marched in place for 220 steps.
Guess who is having a little obsession problem again.
Today I walked sweet pea for shorter than usual at the woods because (well, because I had to pee and just didn't feel like peeing in the woods) I knew I was going to go out with her again this afternoon. I took her to the beach, where I hardly ever go. It does occur to me that it is weird to live in a beach town and never go to the beach. I guess I'm not a sand in my shoes kind of girl. Also, it is freaking windy at the beach making it feel about 20 degrees colder than not at the beach. Next time I'll only go if it is sunny. The sun is nice and there isn't too much sun in the woods.
I intend on meditating every day but am having difficulty finding a good time to hide for little while. Also, the television is ALWAYS on in this house and TV and meditating don't go hand in hand. I suppose I could tell the husband the TV is going off here and there but at this point it feels strange to be in this house with other people and not hear the television bringing down my IQ in the background. I know, it sounds an awful lot like I am making excuses, and I am. I am one big whiny excuse for a human being lately and I fear that I might be this whiny excuse for a human being for a long time.
I do not like the path that I am on and it is not in my ability to change it. Accept the things I can not change, accept and move forward. I'm trying.