The other day I looked down and realized that I better keep duct tape near by in case Josh's sneakers fell to pieces. So I ordered him a new pair of sneakers. Josh's new sneaks are black, the first ever pair of black ones he has ever had. When I picked him up from school I almost didn't recognize him with black sneakers on, and I told him so. He said it was strange for him wearing the new sneakers because he could no longer feel the cracks and bumps in the side way with his feet. I got shamed.
But then the next day when I slipped on my old favorite hiking boots, I realized that I too could feel every branch and pebble on the path. Guess I've fallen behind on my foot wear updates for both of us.
I'm seriously starting to stress about utopia not selling yet. By stress I mean, all out panic. I just need to rip that band aid off! With thanksgiving around the corner I just don't quite know what to do. We have been there for every thanksgiving since the house was rebuilt but now the house is a sad place for me to be. sigh.
I happened by a juried photo contest with the theme of trees and immediately knew I had to enter it. I hope I get in! It's a gallery in Texas, which is not great because should I get into the show I would absolutely love to be at the gallery reception. Texas isn't quite driving distance from here. Since I've been to Ohio and back a few times that is kind of my outer limit for driving time. Texas- beyond. First let's see if I make it through!
Yesterday I drove back to stepford to see the good old chiro because no other chiro (and I've tried about 6 or 7) has any idea what to do when I say "My head is off and my face is crooked" But the stepford chiro fixes it. When he walked into the room he said "Hi! What can I do for you today?" and I just stared at him and then creepily whispered I need you. All of a sudden the desperateness of how many pieces of me are in need of his magic hit me like a tsunami. He did do some work on my head bones which involved pushing on the roof of my mouth with a finger and then rubbing something he said was a bone on the side of my neck which I had no idea was painful as hell until he touched it. Then on my drive home (as is always the case, his special kind of magic takes 2-3 hours to kick in) I could feel my face starting to tingle as if it had been asleep all this time of twistedness and was finally getting some circulation back into it. I was so happy I cried. Then last night my face did not hurt when I laid it on the pillow so I know I'm heading in there right direction.
I also asked the chiro to test me for tick diseases with his Applied Kinesiology magic. He said I tested positive for anaplasma, which as a disease is called human granulocytic anaplasmosis. Symptoms include (but are not limited to) severe headache, muscle aches, nausea, abdominal pain, aching joints, weakness fatigue, change in mental status (I blamed that on shifting hormones), and also gastrointestinal symptoms. (Which, let's be real, I kind of probably wouldn't even know if I had except that mysterious 6 week bout of 6 times a day violent diarrhea after I pulled a tick off my butt his summer) Guess which symptoms I don't have! Think about it and you'll know before you read on. I don't have loss of appetite and weight loss. That is NEVER my symptom. I'm in the minuscule minority of people who actually think this kind of illogical thinking "Hmmm. I'm slightly nauseated, I better eat something and see if that doesn't make me feel better" Lucky me! The chiro also gave me something for it, so we will see how I respond and hopefully I can get past this and not be queasy and poopy and achy and tired. Damn, I do not feel good.