Matt and I flew to hipster college today. Right now we are in a hotel. He can't sleep because he is so excited (and just a wee bit nervous) I can't sleep because tomorrow I have to take my baby to college. And also because yahoo had a story about hotel bed bugs on the home page yesterday. Where the hell did the last 18 years go? Can I tell stories about Matt as a toddler now?
When Matt was a baby people used to look down on him in the baby carrier and exclaim "He glows!" Being his mother, I naturally thought he was superior in every way to all of the other babies and didn't really stop to think about the whole glowing thing until I heard it over and over and over again. One day an older woman said he glowed and asked if I was nursing. I said I was and she said she knew it by his glow. But I knew other nursing babies that didn't glow like Matt. Then one day when Matt was about 3 I walked into a room and saw a mom holding her infant who glowed too. So I said "Your baby glows, I bet you are nursing." and this mom said she was nursing, but I knew that it was more than that.
If I don't keep my mind on things othe than Matt leaving me for Hipster U. I cry.
The first time baby Matt ever totally cracked up was one day when we wee walking our best dog ever Oscar in Prospect Park. Oscar loved this one brand of squeaky toy that looked like vegetables. I threw the tomato ball and as Oscar trotted back to me with the squeaky tomato in his mouth he was squeaking it and Matt thought the squeaking was Oscar laughing so he cracked up too. I stood there frozen to the spot all alone with my hysterical laughing baby facing outward strapped to my chest marveling at the strangeness of the moment.
There is a two day orientation for Matt. He'll sleep at Hipster U. tomorrow night, I'll sleep at the hotel, but I'll get to see him again Wednesday before I leave.
Speaking of Oscar, he was quite a role model for baby Matt. Did I ever mention that for a while baby Matt used to crawl around and carry his toys in his mouth too? I have photo evidence.
I can't believe I have to fly home alone. That is going to be the worst flight ever. I can't even drink because I'll have to stumble off of the plane and drive back to new town. To get here, to the middle of flat lands, we had to board a plane by walking onto the tarmac and climbing up a step ladder onto the plane. Dear god. That last fact could be titled: How to give me a heart attack.
The night that Matt started to walk was a night that my dad came over for dinner. I thought "Wow, Matt sure is showing off for my dad." and I didn't realize until the next morning that he had actually been walking around our tiny living room. I thought he was just being a more bold couch surfer.
It sure is flat here in the midwest. It's seriously peculiarly flat. Tonight when the sun went down I could do a 360 and see every edge of sky all on the same level. How bizarre. I bet you can't buy a ten speed bike here. (And yes, I know I just dated myself)
The first time I felt like baby Matt was verbally communicating with me was one day when I was feeding him some dinner. Matt said KEYS and I wasn't putting two and two together, because I thought he was babbling about something food related. Matt kept saying keys because clearly I wasn't getting it and then finally he gestured towards my keys and I realized he was telling me my keys were on the kitchen table. I cried then too. It was meaningful.
The power (thanks, Irene) is still out in utopia. A couple of my neighbors went and showered at my place today because we have a generator. I wish I was there. Roughing it. With all of my kids together. Like the natural order of things says we should be.
Matt hated the stroller and could barely tolerate it until the day he learned to walk. Once he moved through space on his own he was fine with it. I carried him in some sort of device for the first 14 months of his life and used the stroller mostly as a shopping cart. I think I should get some kind of medal for that.
I think I feel bed bugs on me. Evan says imaginng bug bites is the first sign of insanity.