I keep forgetting to tell you (Molly) that the way I prepared the kale the other night was to put some olive oil and sea salt on it and bake it in a 450 degree oven on parchment until it was crispy. This method was recommended to me by the nutritionist who gives you a lot of "kid friendly" type tips. She called it "kale chips." I didn't even approach it with my kids, I just gobbled it all up myself. (Yum, salt)
So, I did stand up straight all day today! And honestly, it's better than yesterday, which gives me hope, but still not too good which has me really really down. I tried to convince myself the whole back episode was over, since I stood like a fully evolved human and everything, but I was kidding myself, and I had to crawl return to my bed by 3 o'clock and sleep away the discomfort. I can't believe how much I've been sleeping the past 4 days. This pain has just sucked the life force out of me. Half the time I am plastering on a fake old smile trying to be my usual cheerful self for the kids, the other half of the time I could just crawl into a cave and let the saber tooth tigers have at me.
I need to say this, I don't expect you to follow: I did make one plate today (immediately following my nap, during the rested back phase of the day) and I think that the way I had to compensate for the plate's increased contrast with my transparencies no longer applies, and I can't tell if it is because I am using a thinner plate or because I am using a different kind of light source, or a different sort of photo or what. I could only stand up for one plate today, and I am going to reprint the transparency darker and with more detail tomorrow to make a new plate from and see if I don't get a more satisfactory plate out of it. Also, the dude from the exposure unit company told me to use the same amount of exposure for my aqua tint screen as for my transparency and I'm not sure that's right. I wish I had someone to talk about this with. It's gonna take me weeks to figure this out, I just know it.
I find it incredibly curious that I still have no appetite. Nothing usually manages to kill my appetite. I'm thankful for that, especially since right now getting out of bed to eat hurts, and I can not do the exercise required to burn off what I eat, and I can't stand up long enough to prepare food, I'm going to cry. All I want to do is go to the gym. I would settle for a walk, except I'd feel guilty and have to take the devil and I am afraid she would pull on the leash and hurt me.
Hoping that tomorrow I wake up and feel normal.