It's hot, humid and blazingly sunny today. The opposite of my favorite photographing weather. I need light layer of clouds evenly spread over the sky. Fog is nice, but so is rain, and also dry, so not sure exactly what role (if any)dampness plays in my quest for "good light." Not sure why the humidity effects the quality of the light, but I know that it does. I'm sure if I think about it long enough I can figure it out. Go science! Probs something about the moisture in the air reflecting light.
Yesterday I took sweet pea to the park around here where people are not always responsible with their dogs. (Recall: when she was tiny she got attacked by a yorkie there) Someone had a flat coated retriever and we were on the same course for a little bit and I kept thinking I was seeing bear bait out of the corner of my eye. It was upsetting.
This morning I took sweet pea and my camera to the woods, and set off on the trails, except there was that bad light, so eventually I stuck the lens cap on and put the camera into the bag and just walked and walked and walked and didn't come upon another person (except for one trail runner who never even stopped to smile at us) for an hour. Then I came upon a group of women I have seen hanging out in the area where people hang out and I turned around and walked the reverse way with them so that sweet pea could romp with another puppy. It was weird walking with them because they walked eyes to the ground and super fast and never took in any scenery at all. This is why I like to walk alone. I can take my time and have a visual experience.
With school weeks in the past I can finally feel the school related tightness and panic draining away. It really took this long. Now I am back to thinking pre-MFA thoughts, like how much I do not want to
Guess what, I started this post yesterday!
This morning there was fog, I ADORE fog, so I dropped Josh off, ran home for my camera and went out shooting in the fog. It was delicious. I was sad that I had to stop because my car was going in for an oil change, but the universe took pity on me and decided to lift the fog right as I stopped photographing. It was almost like someone turned the fog machine off so as not to make me feel bad. That was nice. I hear tomorrow we might get more fog and I have my AM photo journey all planned out!
I took Evan to the bank and got him set up with a checking account for college. I also took him shopping for some new underwear and pants. He's been really unbearably irritable lately and during lunch he said "I think I've been a little grouchy lately because I am feeling anxious.". No kidding E! I feel bad for the kid because it must be hard to see all of his friends go off before him. I wish he was going to college closer to home. I think he is stupid to go so far away. We won't be able to visit, he will only come home for big vacations. I think there is a chance he might regret being so far away. He pretends to be the coolest character, but I know he is actually the biggest softie teddy bear mush. I think I'm more worried about him than I was about Matt. Matt was SO READY. It's different for Evan, Evan is more ready to get it over with.
I did one other thing today, and that is: I submitted my thesis book to a photobook contest. gulp! I just put all of my insecurities on a shelf, filled out the forms and drove straight to the UPS store and handed it to the guy with the address all filled out on a post it and said "Mail this for me, please." And, it has been submitted! Yahoo for me. Luckily, they decide pretty fast which books make it into the final round so I won't have to wait long to find out if I am in the accepted group. If not, I will totally take my book back! I'll let you know by the end of the month.